It’s strange, I have regularly blogged on here a couple of times a week for almost five years guys (FIVE YEARS, that’s a reception child!) and yet it feels like I haven’t invested my heart for a good few months.
A couple of weeks ago I read Jen’s blog explaining why A Little Bird had changed. I noticed she’d had an anonymous comment wondering where the “thrifty” element had gone, and Jen, quite rightly, justified why her content had grown, because she’d grown up too. I have loved her blog since waaay back in 2009, and I have always admired how she stayed true to herself.
You might have noticed I don’t really talk about Sheffield much these days, because the truth is 16 months ago I moved away. Financially, it doesn’t make sense for me to travel to cover stuff up there just because my SEO happens to be perfect for a Sheffield blog. I live 40 minutes away in the countryside, and I’m not going to apologise for that – I love it here. Sheffield was my life then, but now it’s different.
I want this blog to be more of what makes me happy. I want it to reflect how my life actually is now, and who I spend it with. I want it to be about MORE than a pretty dress because I am most definitely made up of MORE than that. If I met the person who is portrayed in this blog I worry I’d be bored to tears. In the dark depths of my gut I am terrified I’ve become this vacuous, anonymous fashion luvvie who, actually, has more interesting stuff to say because SHOCK HORROR clothes aren’t that important unless what you’re doing wearing them is worth a mention.
I like books, and dogs, and colorsplash cameras, and tattoos, and independent coffee shops, and running, and galleries and singing in the car and working so, very hard, and crazy guitar music that makes your heart beat, and cuddles and dancing with my best friends until you want a pizza. I like all of this stuff just as much, if not more than what is portrayed on Jazzpad, so something clearly needs to change.
I don't give a shit about SEO or page views or affiliation or no-follow links. I hate how the community doesn’t feel like much of a community any more. I used to get 28 comments on a post about painting a chair. While my stats haven’t changed, I feel like the blogging world has exploded and what was important a couple of years ago (making friends and sharing stuff) means tiddly squat now.
The best thing about blogging has been the opportunities it has brought for my career (I work in PR now and have somehow become the go-to blogging person for our clients), what I've built up all by myself (I still have to be proud of that) and overwhelmingly, the close friends I have made, who I text and meet up with and genuinely am proud to know. I'm even going on holiday with some of them this year - you know who you are - that is just amazing!
What I’m basically trying to say is that stuff here is going to change. My family and friends read this blog just as much as you lot do now, so I want it to be much more balanced. I'm taking ownership back of Jazzpad, and be warned PRs - I'll be much more selective of what I write about.
Stick with me - you lot who know me I hope will see much more of "me" over the next few weeks, but for those of you I haven't had the pleasure of chatting over a bottle of cider with, hello, my name is Claire, and I'm really looking forward to getting to know you.